A half of an hour before the Sunday service starts, and here I am in my bed, remain undecided if going to attend or not. “Maybe, I will just attend virtually.” Then, suddenly, I remembered my promise to Julius that I will be with him on the second service. And, that promise had pulled me, rushing my breakfast while I am getting my jogging pants and an oversized shirt. Hurriedly, I took a bath for four minutes, brushed my teeth in a snap, and got myself prepared at 9:49, 11 minutes before the service. LOL. It is funny to see myself as a sinful person who’ll attend the mass late. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

When I got inside the church, the service is not yet started. I was happily greeted by M. Tyrone, sharing his meet-up story with his lover. Then, I greeted Julius, proudly bumping his fist as I attended as I promised. The service starts. Opening prayer turns like a blitzkrieg of God’s fire, flowing in my heart. It feels like I am going to scream the joy in my heart at any minute. Then, praise and worship started. Nothing is impossible makes me lift and clap my hands higher and louder. Then, the presence of God seems to poke my consciousness. Even the drum is still rolling enthusiastically, I was crying. How great our God is! Then, Give me Faith x Do it again worship make me honor God with all of my heart, spirit, mind, and soul. Relentlessly, I ask God for a new faith that is enough for me to believe His love and promises. Cause I realized that the reason why people seem to be bothered and burdened is that they cannot fight for their faith. So many of God’s promises, but our faith is weak, that’s why peace and blessings are losing their way toward us.

In the offering part, I found my heart completely cheerful, giving the best I can for God. I know that God is not for my gold and treasure, but He is after my heart and faith. “What is the level of my faith and happiness when I gave my offering?” The answer to this question will tell us how much we made God proud and happy. When we had our life group, we share our current stories. Most of us tell that they are okay but still have the missing piece in their hearts that they cannot find. They have emptiness, brokenness, longingness, burdens, pressure, mental issues, behavioral issues.

Jester says, “When everything comes to ruin, we just need to have a leap of faith.”
Joram says, “I continue to have my faith in God because I see no results. I believe that no results are preparation of God’s abundant blessings for me.”
Alexis says, “It is not always okay to not be okay.” That makes me realize that it is okay if we feel guilt and loneliness but never let them stay in our hearts forever. When you think that being not okay is okay, it means you are not really okay. Let’s feel the emptiness but soon find joy and peace.
Russelle says, “I go fill my schedule and make interactions with my friends for the rest of the day because I feel burdened inside our home.” We prayed that he will soon stare at that feeling and rebuke it away from his life. I pray that the time will come that he does not need to escape but to fight over that thought.
Lorenz cried. It breaks us all as he was emotionally affected by his family’s past stories that made him cry and refuse to share. It is sad. But, we pray that time will come, everything in his family will be alright. I love this day. I love the raindrops falling in my body as I walk home. And, now, I am sneezing. Yet, I still feel I am fully favored. I praise you, Lord! I love You, Lord! I am so- *sneezes*