I was once a clean sheet of white paper. No tints of past stories. No marks of insecurities. No colors nor paints. What I remember before, I do not overthink small things. I accept the harsh words of the world. I embrace the bad role of the dark souls that surround me. It was not a bother for me to be stared at. Those days, when I was only…Read More

I was never happy doing it, but why do I still do it?
It was never fun, never did it help me to have a better day.
It just feels like it is a great loss not to do it.

Sometimes it consumes my 3 hours,
Sometimes more than I’ve expected.

I was consumed by the thrill it offers to my body.
Even I am not still committing it, the latter…Read More

Dear You,
I need you to learn to be okay by yourself. Stop thinking that you always need to be with someone else just to feel loved. Love you some you. Love yourself enough to wake up everybody that it is just okay to wake up even it is just you, yourself, and you. Figure out your likes. Figure out your dislikes. But never ever again feel like…Read More

A half of an hour before the Sunday service starts, and here I am in my bed, remain undecided if going to attend or not. “Maybe, I will just attend virtually.” Then, suddenly, I remembered my promise to Julius that I will be with him on the second service. And, that promise had pulled me, rushing my breakfast while I am getting my jogging pants…Read More